thirty-four.
God,
i think last night was a real wake up call for me. as much as i feel i have really improved on myself, i have a lot of work to do. thank you for showing me even though it was a painful process. it hurts to have to see my own flaws and how they affect other people so greatly. even though i have to go through a loss right now, i know that it was the right thing to do for both myself and the other people involved. i think we played off each other in bad ways, and even though i was in the wrong too, they have flaws as well. nobody is perfect. i am not here to focus on what they did wrong though - it is my responsibility to recognize my harmful actions and do something about them. i am going to be better, and i am going to use this as a lesson and carry it with me.
i know what i want now, and i know what i need to focus on. i only hope that my wants and desires align with your wants and desires for me. thank you for forgiving me for how awful i’ve been. i know you know how sorry and guilty i feel inside, and i am going to work to fix what has caused this feeling.
i love you. thank you for your wonderful gift of forgiveness and redemption.
