February 2010
1 post
thirty-four.
God, i think last night was a real wake up call for me. as much as i feel i have really improved on myself, i have a lot of work to do. thank you for showing me even though it was a painful process. it hurts to have to see my own flaws and how they affect other people so greatly. even though i have to go through a loss right now, i know that it was the right thing to do for both myself and the...
November 2009
1 post
thirty-three
dear God, i’ve been praying every night. i’ve been living my life filled more with belief and less with doubt. i’ve been trying so hard. i keep asking you to show me signs that everything is going to be okay, and every single time i ask, You show me what i ask for. why am i still so anxious? i just want to jump into whatever i am doing filled with complete faith and no anxiety...
October 2009
4 posts
thirty-two.
dear God, why is it that when things seem to be getting better, there’s always something that makes things take a step backwards? i can’t imagine it’s because i’ve been getting too cocky and not needing you, because i have prayed to you every night. i rely on You every single day. when i’m sad, i know You are with me, and that i have no reason to fear anything because...
God answers prayers.
even if it’s little by little, the little things soon add up to the big things. THANK YOU, God. i love you.
thirty.
dear God, i know you do answer prayers, slowly, but surely.
i love you.
twenty-nine.
dear God, i haven’t written in a while. instead, i’ve been talking to you outloud. i just want a second chance. everyone deserves second chances, right? i love you.
June 2009
5 posts
twenty-eight.
dear God, please help this sadness in my heart go away. my heart feels heavy today, and i can’t figure out why. i know some of the reasons, but others aren’t so clear. i’ve tried to keep myself busy this weekend, and i know me letting go has definitely been helping You work. please help me to continue to help You, and please help me continue to improve and grow. i know things are...
twenty-seven.
dear God, i really wasn’t aware that my life was synonymous with rollercoaster. one minute i’m feeling amazing, the next i feel like complete utter crap (pardon my french). i pray everyday for strength. what is wrong with me? why am i not getting this like i should? i love you.
twenty-six.
dear God, thank you. it’s nights like last night that make me feel like things can and will get better. it renews my faith and strengthens my hope. thank you. i love you.
twenty-five.
dear God, i know i’ve been slacking on my notes, but i’ve been trying to live my life and remember that you have a hand in everything that happens. i’m trying to relax, let go, and let You happen. i keep You in my mind every single day, and You are always in my heart. i silently pray before i go to sleep, when i wake up, and when i’m just walking around and feeling like i...
twenty-four.
dear God, why does it feel so wrong to feel happy sometimes? i’m trying to let go. i’m trying to relax. then my thoughts take over, and i feel guilty. please help. i love you.
May 2009
24 posts
twenty-three.
dear God, i’m still hoping. i’m still praying.
twenty-two.
dear God, i’ve been trying all day not to think about what happened. i don’t know why you took him away from me again. i’ve been trying not to cry, but i lost my strength. my eyes are red; my face is blotchy; my lips are chapped from all of the crying i’ve done the past two days; my heart is aching. i believe in love. i believe that love conquers all, and that nothing will...
twenty-one.
dear God, i seriously do not get my life. i know we’re not supposed to have all the answers, but why, then, am i so unsatisfied with not knowing anything? i get mad, but then i feel guilty for being mad because i know my situation is my fault.. but i can’t help the anger sometimes. i can’t help feeling betrayed. am i really that bad? was it really that awful?
twenty.
dear God, i need more strength. sometimes i feel like i don’t have enough, and sometimes there are days where i do feel strong.. but i never feel as if i have too much strength. i feel as though having too much strength is better than any of those other options. at least i know it’s there even if i don’t need it. does that make sense? i love you.
nineteen.
dear God, i feel so empty. i’m struggling. somedays are okay.. then there’s days like today. i just don’t understand sometimes, and i really wish i could. i want to stop feeling so empty. i want my old life back.
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Lord, I am about to be ready to commit myself to someone I fell in love with. Could I take him now? I have prayed for him for quite a time now.
But the Lord answered. No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by me alone. You need to give yourself totally unreserved to me because in me your satisfaction is...
eighteen.
dear God, i can still feel it. i’m almost there. i believe ordinary people can live extraordinary lives. i believe in miracles. i believe things are going to change for the better. i believe i will get what i want. i love you, and thank you.
seventeen.
dear God, please. i’m so close i can feel it. please just give me one more chance.
sixteen.
dear God, i’m trying hard, but i still dislike my life without him in it. why is this happening? do You believe in karma?
fifteen.
dear God, thank you for my beautiful life. it’s taken me a long time to realize just how beautiful it is, and despite all that i lack, i still have so much. i don’t know if this mindset is permanent. i know i’ll have my days where i am so depressed and can’t even see how i could appreciate all that i have when what i lack is what i want back the most, but for now, i want to...
fourteen.
dear God, thank you for this day. it made me happy. it made me smile. it made me feel like things are looking up, finally, and that they will continue to look up. please let this be the start of my uphill climb. i have waited for it for so long. i need my miracle. i love you.
thirteen.
dear God, sometimes i think you place things in my life to test my strength, as if i haven’t exhibited it enough in the past. sometimes i really think i’m running out of ways to keep myself alive, ways to keep myself from falling into the darkest depths of depression and never coming back out. but somehow, i never run out of those ways, and somehow i always manage to make it through...
twelve.
dear God,
i need a miracle.
eleven.
dear God, why. why. why. why. why.
ten.
dear God, i am trying. i really am. i love you.
nine.
dear God, please guide and protect me always. keep me on the right path. help me stop being so judgmental because what good has that ever done me? none, and i know that now. i just want to be one of those people that others look up to.. not because i show off my good deeds and how good i am, but because i am a good person, and i do it just to be proud of myself. i love you.
eight.
dear God, please save me. i’m scared. i’m scared of what’s going to happen to me. i’m scared of this nightmare i’m living in, and i just want it to be over. i love you.
seven.
dear God, i love how you answered part of my prayer when i least expected it. i’ve always hated surprises, but sometimes they can be good. thank you.
six.
dear God, one of the things i love most about life is how things seem to fall into place. everything is so perfectly planned. the right lessons are delivered at the right moments, and there is no such thing as a coincidence.. at least, not in my world. events happen to open doors that needed to be opened and allow realization that does the individual a lot of good. thank you.
five.
dear God,
i believe in miracles. i believe in the power of human thought, and i believe in the power of prayer.
please give me my miracle.
i love you.
four.
dear God, i know the reason i haven’t received the things i have asked for yet is because i am not ready. please help me be ready. i love you.
three.
dear God, all i have to say today is thank you. there is a question that i want to ask, but i don’t know if i have the strength for the answer. then i remember that i have you, and i know you’ll give me that strength no matter how hard it is and how much it takes. thank you for always being there. i love you.
two.
dear God, today was a hard day, but i’m learning. i’ve been writing letters to get it all out, but sometimes i feel like i’m this bottomless pit that can store infinite amounts of feelings, pain, tears.. i want to stop crying. i need to stop crying. the tears do me no good, and fear has no place in my life. i don’t want to be fearful anymore because i know that you are...
one.
dear God, please help me make it through every single lonely day. please help me relinquish control and know that everything is and will be as it should be. please help me to always stay faithful and grounded because that really is the only way to be, especially with how crazy lives can be these days. please pray for me and guide me always. i love you.